A REAL ENTRY.
Wow I haven't done one of these since like... January. HOW ABOUT SOMETHING um. Japan is still Japan. I go home in a little over a month now, but it doesn't really feel real. As homesick as I am, I know the few things I like about being here, I'm going to really miss. And I'll probably go through some weird reverse culture shock when I get back. Hopefully I haven't turned into so much of a recluse that I can't function in groups anymore when I get back, haah. Being around more than 3-4 people feels so stressful.
School stuff is okay. My classes are all really boring and I'm really starting to hate my Japanese class. Like, our last presentation, I was the only person who was able to read the whole thing without staring at my script reading word for word, or talking like I'm announcing for horse races or something like this one girl (seriously, she sounds like she's an auctioneer or something when she talks Japanese, it's so annoying to listen to) AND YET because my little paper that people were supposed to follow along to wasn't in the exact same format as everyone else, I got scolded in front of the class.
UHM I THOUGHT WE WERE SUPPOSED TO BE LEARNING THE LANGUAGE HERE, WHO CARES IF I DIDN'T SEPARATE AND TITLE EVERY SINGLE LITTLE THING...? The papers were bullshit anyway; every student had to print 22 copies, and some had more than one page! Those poor trees...
Outside of school... lol I don't do anything. I have to be really careful with money, since I'd like to have some left over after I get back for until school starts again. If I go anywhere, I spend money, so... :'D I think I'll just be a super tourist for the last week I'm here to make up for it, and go see everything one last time.
And on a little note healthwise... eh. I keep getting sick here, but I think that's more because of mental stress than actually being sick. This past week I've been having anxiety issues that make my heart feel funny and make it hard to breathe whenever I lay down, and that's been a lot of fun... I think I need to take a break from things for awhile, but I'm not sure where to take a break or how.
And of course, RP wise, which is like... most of my life these days. I am a very exciting person.
Honestly, I feel like I need to take a break from Luceti for a bit. Not the drop-kind of break, but like... big hiatus break. And maybe a drop for the character I've been struggling with (sob, Tanuma). The only thing holding him in place now is knowing that all my threads are going to be sad for awhile if I only stick with Ion; since I've been so horrible to him, he's pretty much just a ball of sad right now. And honestly, there's a part of me that kind of wants to hold off on working to make things better for him when I know next month will have some sad plots too.
Which I don't mind! But... I need a happy outlet when I'm over here in a bad mood all the time too. :'D
And that's why I'm finally taking the jump and doing this.
I've been wanting to get back into Smash for like... ever. I always waffled over it because of various reasons and things coming up...
But man, I've totally fallen in love with the game Ib. I loved Yume Nikki and .flow, but the one thing I always wanted to see was a storyline version of that kind of gameplay. Of just... creepy and unsettling things in a horror setting. And since I started playing not expecting to get SUDDENLY PARTY MEMBER, I think that made me love Garry even more. :'D And, aside from the fact that Ib as a canon wouldn't be appable in Luceti, I think I'd like him in a setting like Smash more. I'm kind of worried I might be stepping on someone's toes, but... I didn't see any other reserves or apps up, so I think it's okay... we'll see...
...anyway I should sleep now, gotta be up in 6 hours. /flies